Wonder , why me?

I know  you know the urge to ask," God what am I doing here?" It's the most common human question to a God who speaks in mysterious ways and man most generally not understanding God's language. That my friend is called Humanity. We all being lost souls only found by the death on the cross of God's only true Son who is the Christ. What is it I a sinful lost at birth soul would have to give a magnificent savior of Jesus' statue. Just one life it's all I have. I give to Jesus as He gave me His! So tis all I have and all I can do is choose. Two paths to take tis easy to see the wide one is easy the narrow seems tough. Nothing good is ever easy. Everything good is worked hard for if its honest. All I need to remember if what I would do with my life is going to truely help someone other than me. Service is at the eye of every true servant of Jesus Christ for His whole life is service. We no matter how much in service we are could  we ever come close to being like Jesus? I think not! Oh by the way this is what a Chipmonk stuffed with sunflower seeds looks like. One of the little friends God has blessed me with.

Apostasy

This young man speaks and my heart crys out to the world saying,"PLEASE LISTEN AND WAKE UP BEFORE YOU ARE LOST WITH THE RELIGOUS!"  It has become increasingly obvious to me the The Word, The Son of God, The Christ, Our King and our Lord Jesus was talking about these current days in His explanation of the last days. Only just a few more things of the world need to become a reality for all prophecy to be fulfilled. The fox now holds the keys to the hen house aka Satan now has his workers in control of most organized denominations of Christianity. Just as the scribes and pharasees of the days before Jesus' resurrection todays leadership is lost in their own little power trip. They don't want anyone to speak the truth in their presence eather.

Another Prayer Answered

Again God has proved His love in the answering of prayers. I have wanted to live in a cabin in the woods for a long time. Since my spine problems began in 2005 my credit has suffered severely. Went from mid 700s credit score to one I'd rather not talk about. Times have been extremely difficult for Debra and I living on our fixed income of disability and retirement. We had been living in Yuma, AZ in our old motor home since 2009 and really were cramped. We have been hoping to find someone with a small home who would enter a land contract with us. We searched for a long time with no results. We had been praying for Gods will to be done on the matter so we wouldn't be getting involved in anything not blessed by Him. We got impatient at times and questioned God at times in prayer if maybe we were asking for too much. Just as we were discussing that perhaps it was just God's will that we just be happy with our life as Rubber Tramps in our motor home in Yuma, God showed Himself in a major way. We had come to the decision to move to Michigan this spring in May so Debra could spend some quality time with her three grown children. We figured we would spend the summer in our motor home at Rose Lake in Leroy, Michigan and find a rent in the fall. Well God said no to that. Obviously He had heard all those prayers and knew we had faith that sooner or later He would act. About a month before our trip planned for early May I saw an add on Craigslist Northern Michigan. It was for the cabin pictured above. The owner stated he would sell on a land contract to the right people. Taking the chance that Debra and I would be those right people I contacted Daniel the owner and applied. Well God had His say also for Daniel was thrilled to know we were people of faith and took a chance on us. Daniel said it made it a lot easier to trust us knowing we loved Jesus. People can say what they want about this but I see this as God showing Himself and His answer of our prayers and unwavering  faith that He would answer. On the trip to Michigan to take possession of the cabin in the woods we got as far as Benton Harbor Michigan in the southwest corner of the state. The transmission in the old motor home went boom. Our insurance company towed it to Wyoming a suburb of Grand Rapids. Now this put us 140 miles short of completing our journey. I was in panic mode! What would we do? I just stopped and prayed with every fiber of my being and I know Debra was doing the same! Right in the middle of my prayer I heard  God speaking in my mind and he said, who do you know that loves me? I was desperate. We had just enough money to pay for the gas for the journey. We were cutting everything very close. The first person that came to my mind to answer the question God had placed in my mind was my sister Paula. She loves God with all her heart and I know she loves me too. She's always been the one person that can see past peoples errors and find love and forgiveness for them. She has always been a source of inspiration for my journey in faith. I am young in faith compared to Paula and I know she has spent plenty of prayers on me to be awakened to Jesus' call. I called her and without any questions or making me beg she was there for me again with much need financial aid. A lot of it! So again God answered my prayers and this time immediately. So we were able to truck our belongings up to our new home. I could not see investing $$$$$$ way to much in that old beat up motor home so I sold what was left of it. We love our little cabin in the woods and we can start new chapters in our lives. God has blessed us in more ways than I can ever write stories about. I think as hard as I try to be in gratitude to God I still sometimes can be ignorant to some of the blessings He bestows. So on that note Holy Father in Heaven please keep me humble and mindful of all that you do in blessings. Thank you so much for loving me the way you do. You always meet my needs and even bless my desires as long as they are righteous ones. Increase my faith Lord and continue to fix my eyes upon you with the knowledge of your ability to know what I need better than I do. Keep my vision of your works aparent to me so I can continue to marvel in You and Your works. Do not let me stray! I ask these things in Jesus' Holy Name! AMEN!!!

He's Still God sung by Debra Pelkey

Never Out Of His Love sung by Debra Pelkey.wmv

God always provides new joy for our lives.

I know God loves me and knows what brings me happiness by the precious ones He brings into my life. When I got older and my sons got all grown and on their own I was at a loss for a while. Seemed like being used to caring for the boys had me feeling the empty nest blues. I just needed to be needed. God knows what we need before we do a lot of times. He provided me with the joy of finding Debra my wife. He knew I needed someone to be with that loved Him as much a I. Then knowing I missed my children He gave me Malora and then Lilo our two little dogs. They will always need me they won't grow up and leave home. Then he sent me Cali our cat. She is so special! I have never seen a cat quite like her. She has the personality of a furry little person. Most cats are very independent, well not her! She talks back to you when you talk to her. She knows how to tell you what she wants by actions and certain meow sounds. And she will go to her over sized big dog pet porter kennel on command! Now how many cats do you know that will follow commands? But most of all she is just the most affectionate cat I have ever seen. She a little daddy's girl. She knows when I don't feel well and she watches over me like a mother hen. She lays beside me on the bed for afternoon naps if I'm tired or having a lot of back pain. She rubs her face on my face and purrs as if to let me know she cares and is there for me then snuggles curled up against my back like she's hugging me. She won't get up until I do. I know she will always need my care as well as Lilo and Malora. So now I am all adjusted to my sons being out on their own and I have these three new children that need me and always will. Yes God knows exactly what we need even before we do. But most of all it's wonderful to have such a loving God to care for us! Yes He truly does meet all our needs!

Yes Lord Jesus Though I was once blind now I see! So many things so clearly now that I live my life for you and not myself. Judgement was a way of life for me. No forgiveness was found in me. I really never knew how to love. I was never really taught these things as a child. I lived a life of fear in a family broken by alcohol and godlessness. Thank you Father for my grand mother "Nanna" Onita Bowman who had a love for the Lord and would talk with me about Jesus in my youth to give me some knowledge of Him. She read the gospel to me on occasion and I enjoyed it. It felt good to know that someone cared about those poor Jewish people of that day and would help them. A lot of time as a child I felt scared and helpless with everything that went on in my home with my family so I could really relate. When I was eight years old I had a school friend named Chris McKenney. His dad was the cub and boy scout master in town. His dad and mom were devout Christians and went to mid week services and prayer meetings after cub scout meetings on Wednesday nights. I was in scouts so rather than go home to the country on the bus after school Chris' folks asked if I would like to join them at their home for dinner before the meeting and my folks said ok so I did. After the meeting my dad was supposed to pick me up but was late so Mr McKenney called my mom and said they would bring me home after church and not to worry about coming to get me as no one would be there when they came. She said ok. So I went to church for the very first time. Everyone seemed so happy to see each other! And wow they really were happy to meet me! It was fun. I really didn't know the songs but really enjoyed listening. The pastor preached on starting at John 18 with the arresting of Jesus and His restoring the ear of the servant to the chief priest after Peter cut it off. Then Jesus being taken away and eventually tried, beaten, and crucified. I sobbed! I couldn't help it. My grand mother had told me before of these things but never with the boldness of cold hard truth as the pastor had spoke of it! I truly believe the Lord won my heart right then and there for good but I just didn't know and accept to have His full blessing you must live the life by picking up the cross and following Him. This I did not do. At the end of the service the pastor asked if anyone wanted to accept Jesus as their Lord and savior to come forward I nearly ran up there. I heard Mr McKenney chuckle as I zipped past him. They prayed with me and sprinkle poured water over my head to baptize and anointed my forehead with the oil of our Father. Then everyone there hugged me and welcomed me to God's Kingdom family. I got to tell you that was one of the nicest feelings I had ever had. I felt God's love a lot. But once I was back home all that love was gone. Back to the reality that was my life. Parents that didn't love God, or each other enough to stop abusing themselves, each other, or their children. Then I grew up and repeated a lot of the same sinful living of my parents. Finally once I had pretty much ruined my life and lost everything and everyone I loved I heard Jesus' voice speaking in my heart loader and loader! Asking me are you tired of being a loser? Do you enjoy Satan defeating you? Would you like to turn this around before it's too late? So what if some people in your life won't forgive you God will if you ask in MY NAME SAITH THE LORD! I never left you I have just been waiting for you to realize who's side your on. You can't live a life of sin and know ME! You need to pick up your cross and follow me in repentance. He nagged at me thank Him and nagged at me thank the Father in heaven in my heart until I gave in. Thank you Jesus for never giving up on me! My life is free now. I used to think drinking beer and smoking pot set me free. What a bone head! They were just chains of bondage to bind me! I forgive all who have wronged me in any way for I won't have those chains binding me either. And for those that don't want to forgive me read Matthew 7 very carefully, also Matthew 18:21-22. Your very own forgiveness rests in your own hands. As does mine. Heavenly Father please bless those with peace , and forgiveness through the loving grace that can only come from You through the blessing of Your Only Begotten Son Jesus Christ, that might be reached by this writing. In Your Service Lord ,in the name of Jesus...AMEN!!!