Thank you God for the Grace you have given me. I did nothing to deserve this forgiving love you have delivered upon me but never the less you gave it to me anyway. All I had to do was ask. I am not satisfied just to be saved I want to live in your will as much as I possibly can. Please God help me to discern who is true and who is not. Some times it's easy to see Satan and his kind for who they are, sometimes they hide in the Christian rank and file, and are very deception filled. I have traveled much in my life. I have visited many churches met many pastors. Some very Godly loving men, some impostors of pastors. Only God knows the hearts of men always but you can watch their leadership tactics and the fruit they bare. I can always tell a church where God is really touching the hearts of people. They enjoy the fruits of each others talents used to praise and worship God joyfully. I can also tell a church where no one really listens to God's will, everyone feels justified in judgement of each other. Even being misled by their pastors that brother should be his brothers keeper. Which after doing they would be in total denial of. And never allowing for anyone to point out in scripture that Jesus taught the opposite in Matthew 7. Fortunately God created me with a soft heart easily broken. God tells me in my heart, if others do not care any more for you than to break your heart then they care not for my heart either, dust off your feet and walk away. I had to do this recently. It hurt but I am still involved in other ministry tasks away from that church. That's the thing God can always use you. One thing might be wrong and you have to walk away but another door will open. As long as you love God, He will love you back and find a perfect job in His kingdom for you. And to those reading this "DO NOT LET THOSE WHO WOULD JUDGE YOU MAKE YOU FEEL BAD!"Judgement is mine saith the Lord! After all their not supposed to be judging anyone anyways. Just stay faithful to Jesus and go where your welcomed and treated with love respect and dignity. There are a lot of cults out there calling themselves churches with some pretty major deceptive control issues. Most if really examined closely are just some losers using God as a means to an end. You'll see it a lot down here in the desert southwest as they like ear tickling and fleecing the snowbirds and retirees. I am praying for those that had a negative effect on my heart to feel the need of repentance for their behavior. I've had to deflect a ton of judgement of late for an ounce of question on my part. And the question on my part could have and should have been easily addressed. It was just that, I as a person meant so little to the parties in question, they just chose to persecute me.